Wednesday, January 17, 2007

debate training

debate training

ok, i just want to scribble (type) something here, before i give up to put them in words.

14/1/07, sunday morning, i went to Kolej Tun Hussein Onn (KTHO) in UKM, Bangi for english debate training, together with Gab and Stella. we departed from KTSN around 0845, or before 9 am.that means i woke up around 8 to get ready. and the night before i slept at 2 am sth. it's not that i want to stay up late... i kept reminding myself to sleep early, because i know i need to get up early the next day and the day ahead will really strain my brain -- to keep alertness while traveling all the way from KTSN to Bangi campus, and for the debate session. the thing is, i set my hair for the dinner ( hey, i was the MC, it'll be very akward if all the girls there set their hair nicely and me as the MC just went there with plain, straight hair ), so when i came back, i have to wash my hair, and waited an hour and plus for my hair to dry.

waking up early on sunday morning is not a problem for me, like it or not, i have to wake up this early in sundays because i'm going to church. although i knew the training is at 10 am, till know i still can't get a rough estimated time to reach there. it all depends on the traffic and the train we take. walking out from KTSN, if we didn't get to flag down any taxi, we'll have to take a 10 min walk to the nearest bus stop and take Rapid KL bus to Titiwangsa Star LRT station, which costs us RM2 with just a short distance. although the bus fare is for to and fro, we didn't get to use the back trip because by the time we come back, it'll definitely be quite dark for us to walk back from the bus station to hostel, and this spells the word "dangerous", if not "snatch thieves".

Reached Star station, we met Jo Ee, who's going to a church in Bangsar. yea, he's late for the service, haa, same as us at the end of the day. there came the train to ampang, we had to wait for the next one which headed to sri petaling. i couldn't believe we wasted quite some time in waiting Star train! it never let me down, you know, at least i never complain to travel by it because the waiting time is not significant. finally we were on the train, it took us about 20 min on the train itself to reach taman tasik selatan station. from there, we had to take KTM to reach UKM. i always dislike taking KTM, because it's a place with very high reported snatched thieves cases, and heard loads more unreported ones, told by friends. besides, it IS slow, slow in arriving and travelling. we just missed the previous one, so we waited around 15 min ++ for the next one, and travelled around 15-20 min on the train itself again. i really surprised with the fact that we've departed earlier than previous experience for debate training in Bangi but still, we were 30 min late for it! i really sorry we were late, but i hope they understand what we have gone through that morning, not to mention the money spent every time we travel to and fro like this. on transportation alone, we spent RM10 ++, which means i have to cut down expenses in other days. sometimes i like to buy the economist or newsweek when i think the articles in it might be interesting for that edition, sometimes i might like to visit Border or kinokuniya and buy some books. my resistance to purchase book is quite low, but i never regret in the books i bought, i really sure i'd like what's in the books then only i buy them, but one book can cost a lot too. yea, we can't always get what we want in our lives right?

when we reached Bangi, Jun Hoe came to fetch us. we caused him to be late too, because he waited to fetch us... sigh... as we entered the memorial room in KTHO, fea and the rest were already there. they were playing pictionariy to kill time. pictionary is my all time favourite, especially with that bunch of people, but of course, we couldn't expect to continue a round with them, because we already wasted some many people's precious time that's for debating.. of course, from what fea first said when she saw us, i know she's mad, i've expected that when we were still waiting for KTM as my watch showed 10am back at KTM station. but i really didn't mean to be late. it's not easy to estimate the time to travel with so many transaction to make. i really wish if only they'd put themselves in our shoes...yea, to counter this, just say : you can always wake up earlier to come in time, just count in the time for waiting and on train, you'll be safe. sigh... it's easy said than done.

my last round of debate before that was on 5th dec 2006, yes, during Royals debate in UiTM Kuching, Sarawak. it's good to have this training session though, or else i'll soon forget how to debate or structure my speech. but this still happened, haa, when i became the first speaker for the first round in Asian Style. i've forgotten the mechanism. i thought i've put everything in, the problem, solution, objective, feasibility, asking those why, how, and etc question to reason, left out the practicality. honestly, i didn't know what does "comprehensive" mean, and it really didn't occur to me to explain or define it a little in my case set up. and haa, i didn't even mention the motion of that round, which is the role of a prime minister, sigh...too rusty.

after that, we decided to debate in British Parliment Style. it's my first try. the 1st BP is on outsoursing, which i have no idea on what's it, but i had anthony to explain to me. next BP, we did on corporal punishment. i was the weep for closing gov and i rebutted a little, then gave an argument, haa.. i've forgotten as the 2nd speaker in closing gov team means i'm the weep, shouldn't have any point to elaborate and should rebutt all still standing arguments from the opposition and sum up the case for the gov but focus on our own closing gov. again, i cause the lost to my team. well, at least it's a lesson to remember. somehow, i just couldn't deny the fact that i became more frustrated towards the end of the debate training, with the tiresome and an unappreciated trip from KTSN still lingering in my mind. but i have to clarify here that jespreet did express her appreciation at the end of the debate.

and another factor is... i realise i have crushed on someone in the UKM english debating team... this is not something exciting because i just feel that we're not going to have spark. that's it. fear comes together with crush, because you'll always fear that your deepest secret might be revealed. either people around you notice your abnormal behaviour towards that crush or that person himself (yes, it's a he) see it in my eyes. i'm not good in hiding feeling, you see... i can keep a friend's secret if i ever promise to keep, but not my own feeling. i'm too used to not wearing mask. the worst some where deep in my heart, i heard it says ... he knows. God! what is your purpose in doing this to me? attract me to debate? great, then why did You keep clashing my debate schebule with church camp or Christian acvitities previously?... You know my soft spot right at the beginning, don't You?... You knew if only he asked, i'd travel all the way to UiTM Shah Alam by myself, where i've never been and which i've never had the experience to travel that far alone yet. still i just simply gave in when he only persuaded a little. i know it's for my own good, but the problem lies here, i feel safe to follow what he said. i was confused, yet i didn't admit i have crush on him until yesterday. have mercy on my, Lord, either You allow it to work out or allow this to be kept as a secret between You and me forever, or whatever, You have my best interest in heart and You knew what's best for me.

after the training session, we went to have Kajang satay. i was the one suggesting to have food other than fast food, which KL already has abundant, because they were there suggesting fast food already, which i don't quite like. during most of the training session we had fast food as our meal, either lunch or dinner. i know it's convenient, but it's not a very firm excuse to have fast food, especially when you're not in a hurry and other restaurants are available and easily accessible. to me, fast food just unhealthy. maybe it doesn't hurt to have it once in a while, but the lesser you consume, the better for yourselves. so there we were, Kajang Satay! it's not bad la, but according to Lisa, the satay in her place, cheras, tastes better. i have no idea how cheras satay tastes like, but hope to try it one day :) i celebrate the food variation we have.

after dinner, they sent us to Kajang KTM station, so we can pay less and reach tasik selatan station with a station less. when we were on Star LRT, it rained! quite a heavy rain, and it's difficult for us to flag a taxi in this weather, plus we'll get ourselves soaked in rain while just waiting for taxi. so we called Yann Shan, but he got to pick up his bro in PJ, we called other friends, but they were not available : somebody drove his car..he's outside, not convenient to go LRT station to pick us up... alas, we managed to get a cab. when we get in the cab, then only the driver said this trip is going to cost us RM 10 !!! !!! !!! HEY! that trip normally cost at most RM3 ok ? just because it's raining and we were desparate to get home, that evil taxi driver took advantage on us !! that's not fair !!! it's such a luxurious ride. i was very mad at these things happen to us. we've paid so much for the trip, now the final attack is even worse. i hate the taxi in KL.

that's all for my debate training experience in Bangi last sunday. somebody please give me a hug?

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