Thursday, December 28, 2006

my fave song 3

here's a song from (late) Luther Vandross, buy me a rose :-)

i like the way (late) Luther Vandross sings. in fact, i realise Black people sing very well in sentimental songs, they really make my heart melt with their songs. let's check out the lyric of the day...

He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants
But it tears her apart 'cause nothing's for her heart
He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss goodnight
If he could only read her mind, she'd say...

Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life

Now the days have grown to years of feelin' all alone
As she sits and wonders if all she's doin' is wrong
'Cause lately she'd try anything just to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she said, if she said...

Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life

And the more that he lives the less that he tries
To show her the love that he holds inside
And the more that she gives the more that he sees
This is the story of you...and me

So I bought you a rose on the way home from work
To open the door to a heart that I hurt
And I hope you notice this look in my eyes
'Cause I'm gonna make things right for the rest of your life

And I'm gonna hold you tonight, tonight
Do all those little things for the rest of your life

*** very touching lyric huh? plus the feeling he sings the song, great!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006


since i was a kid, i've always liked the year end holidays, because it's the longest. due to this fact, my family and i mostly will go somewhere for a trip. a "trip" here means spending over night at tourism spot of other places, like melaka, johor ( sigh, these two places are facing great flood now, not to mention it's Christmas + new+year+coming. there goes all the festive mood of the residents there. ), genting highland, cameron highland, seremban, KL, penang island, hattyai, singapore, ipoh...i think that's all.

penang island and ipoh will be the frequent tourism spot i visit because they're the nearest. i always like penang because of the great food and i am from penang, (but mainland) so i don't have dialect difficulty.

ipoh also gives me a good impression because ipoh is a very clean place. i'm not saying other places are not, but ipoh gives me a particular strong sense of cleanliness, together with the peaceful neighbourhood as well as on the road. as if the drivers are not in a hurry, and you don't have to worry you're not fast enough to make your decision to turn left or right (since we're foreigners there). there you go, a place to real relax and escape from the hassel of cities. hmm.. why am i promoting ipoh? ennie and jun ling will be very happy to find me telling this here, but hey, they have more than ipoh chicken rice to tell you about their hometown!

however, if considering the number of times i visited, the place top in the list will be subang jaya. it's not in KL but just take it as KL ok? because when we stayed in SJ, we visited KL too. everytime my parents travel all the way from penang to KL to visit me or my sister who are (for my sister case, were) studying there, we stayed overnight in Hotel Summit Utara Subang Jaya (USJ). then the next day only go back. it's so frequent that we almost take it as our second home, haa! no, not that frequent, but believe me, all of us are quite familiar with the hotel as well as the shopping mall next to it, speaking as someone who has no sense of direction, it is an achievement. these days i don't see KL as a tourism spot because we're just merely traveling back and forth KL and penang and USJ.

i'd also be glad if kelly (my UKM debater friend) would bring me around sabah or just around her place to enjoy some delicious food, meet some friendly sabahan, visit some great places there. kelly, you got to proof that sabah has all these things! next will be Daniel (also another UKM debater) from miri, sarawak. i wonder how my childhood would've been different in sarawak because sarawak doesn't have Gardenia bread... for i had it every weekdays when i was a kid.

well, this post is not for promoting tourism, but i'm glad ( and greatly surprised ) if it will :-)

my holidays

this holiday has been a relatively great one, for I did go out with friends and family, enjoy some books, songs, movies and TV program, have enough rest and do whatever I like for the past few weeks.

The greatest memory would be my Royal debate in Kuching. I couldn’t call it a holiday trip because we didn’t really visit a lot of places in Sarawak during the tournament, although we take it as it is one. After the night we spent chatting at Bing, a cafĂ© in Kuching town with cool Christmas decoration, I realize that it’s not the place itself that make it great, but the people you be with, and the things you did together, that make you remember the place, the conversations, your memorable moments in life and the atmosphere there, make you want to visit the place again. Those bunch of people really have me learnt a lot from them, effortlessly. Debating skills aside, they’ve thought me to open my heart to them, and I really enjoy every moment to be with them. Fea particularly, I find everything from her is funny, don’t know why, but she’s really adorable in every little action she did. The same goes to Alia, I’m really grateful she came back to attend this tournament with us. Just having her around is enough to make every moment enjoyable. As well as the rest of the team like Kelly, Violet, Meng Fai… ( oh, do I have to name them all? I believe they want some right to privacy.. I’ll edit the post if they leave comments to protest that their names are not here, hee! ) they really can make me laugh or smile from the bottom of my heart.

Next, after coming back home, I’ve gone to watch Dejavu at Gurney plaza in penang island with Thompson, June, and Su Yin. No, it’s not a Hindi movie, which was how I thought about the movie when June suggested it. I believe I’d enjoy a Hindi movie more if I’m watching it with my Indian friends than with non-Indian friends, because they’ll tell me more about the actor and actresses in the movie, and also I can’t really trust the subscript at times, they did glaring mistakes sometimes. We enjoyed a delicious meal from Breeks before the movie. Tasty food, comfortable atmosphere, but a little lousy service. Again, it’s the people we be with that affects our memory to it. The waiters are part of the “people” I mean here. The movie? Complicated plot, but not to the extend of confusing. I’d call it sophisticated. Jun Hoe’d hate this word, I can tell, haa haa! I find the plot an interesting one, telling a story in this way, very creative, and I find no difficulty in understanding it. On the way back we have some ice-creams from McD, with the benefit of 10% off from June’s member card. Thanks June!

And at the very next day, I received a message from Selvi, my old friend, asking for a little gathering! Now that’s what I call holiday, because every time coming back home I also expect to meet some of them and catch up with what they’re up to these days and how they’re doing in their university respectively. That night we also met Sheue Fen, a filthy rich friend who has further her study at Manchester U but will come back Malaysia EVERY holiday, about twice a year. Loaded is thy name, dear! we always have difficulty to make decisions such as where to eat etc, because our topic of conversation also deviated away, accidently. We’ve had a cheerful night. And I’ve finally bought a Sony MP3 player for myself too! I know I want it quite bad since I first saw it, but it took me quite a long time to make the yes,-now-is-the-time-to-do-it” decision. I really like it, and I can manage the transferring songs process myself, not as difficult as pei aun has describe, but I did face some problems though. Small problems whom a technophobia person like me can solve J

Again, at the very next day, dad took leave from company and brought the whole family to Queesbay mall at penang island. It’s a new mall since 1st Dec 06. there’re loads of shops haven’t open yet, June says maybe because they want to open it before Christmas. Yea, that’s the time where people have an extra reason to spend their money, or maybe just window shopping. Honestly, their Christmas decorations are quite beautiful, at least nicer than Gurney plaza. You can’t believe it? Go check it out yourself then. Gurney only has a barely visible small Christmas tree in the central concuss and some not-so-artistically-appreciated hangings from the ceiling, compare with Queensbay mall three large Christmas tree and beautiful hangings from the ceiling and the trees, the atmosphere’s greatly different. It’s been long didn’t come to penang island with family, hence I was very satisfied after the day, with my dad driving and me dozed off behind, like what I used to do when I was a child, everything just felt so good J

Other than these three events, I just spend my days with books, DVDs, TV, internet, music ( especially from my brand new MP3 player! ). Now I’m reading To Kill A Mocking Bird. It took me some pages to discover the fun in this book. Everyone saying it’s a good book, I really doubted it at the first few pages. One of the reasons is because I’m slow in interpreting when it comes to complicated sentences and tough vocabularies. After that, I’m fine, can catch up with the events happened in the book now. Another creative author. I’d say.

That’s it for today, quite a long blog already. See ya people, in my campus I guess, will be where I write my next blog.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

christmas wish..

Being a Christian since this Feb, suppose this's my first "meaningful" Christmas..but now, on Christmas eve, I'm sitting here, in front of this computer, writing blog, listening to michael wong's songs. Not even in the festive mood.

I'm never in the count down for whatever occasion. May it be independant day, Chinese new year, new year. Nah..always not thinking of waiting to watch the fire works. only after a few minutes of the fire works then only drag myself to search for it. It's not that I don't like these celebrations, in fact, I'd love to join them, but some worries like security, safety etc hold me back. I don't want to be snatched, robbed, molested during the moments of count down. Maybe I need a body guard, haa..or I just need somebody?

I'm doing fine single, but not when your best friends' boyfriends replaced you in their life.. or they've had a crush on someone and their situation have reached "more than a friend" stage, honestly, it's not the same anymore. They'll talk about the one they keep thinking of, and less on themselves I can only listen then, for i don even have someone for me to have crush on, ha..pathetic? Not me, those guys around me are, ha!

Nah..I do have a little crush on someone these days. But I don't think we're gonna work though. Why I'm talking about this thing here? It'll be my biggest secrets! well, simply because nobody knows about my blog here. I'm the only visitor I guess, haa. It's the place to be myself because nobody's gonna bother what I am crapping here.

My christmas wish? I'd wish for a friend who'd invite me to their christmas celebration next year, may it be in a church or family, to really feel that I am celebrating the birthday of Jesus Christ.

Merry Christmas everyone. Have a blessed and warm Christmas fill with joy and love! And to Jesus, happy birthday :-)

Monday, December 18, 2006

my fave song2

this is another song's lyric which i just found, from lite fm's lyric station too. you may notice both my fave song1 and my fave song2 are songs that are quite old. well, like i say, they stay in heart no matter what. i simply like the lyrics and the passion of the singers when they sang the songs. i've been loving these songs since few years back. thompson says his favourite songs changed every week. mine? they'll change, but not all :-)

Dying Inside To Hold You ---- Timmy Thomas

It's turning out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
when i turned to leave
i couldn't believe my eyes

standing there i didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face

(And) i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you

you said hello then u asked my name
i didn't know if i should go all the way
inside i felt my life have really changed
i knew that it would never be the same

standing there i didn't know what to say
first time looked away when i whispered your name

Chorus 2x

one hello changed my life
i didn't believe in love at first sight
but you've shown me what is life
and I now i know my love
(i know it's coming right)

Chorus (fade)

my fave song1

this is one of the songs that will always be my favourite. i've copied it from lite FM's lyric station. maybe in future i'll post up more lyrics. i post the lyric of this song first because it really touches my heart everytime i hear it. try to spend some time to read it, will ya?

Butterfly Kisses ---Bob Carlisle

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
andI thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair;
"Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy,
But if you don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time.
"With all that I've done wrong I must have done
Something right to deserve her love every morning
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said
"I'm not sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over.gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair"
Walk me down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry"
Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I've got to let her go, but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

God's favor in Royales debate

Here i want to share with you the testimony to God :-) I fasted and prayed for God's favor for the tournament. and He answered them in a miraculous way:

First round, we met UTM2, we as gov, debated over selling organ issue. Luckily I'd read sth on it in The Economist and used some of the facts from there. At least we have experience with this motion, and the oppenent didn't have structure and substantive argument, we won.

Second round, we as opp, against UTM3, debated over water privatisation issue. The gov set a very narrow case, said they want semi-privatisation in water supply, which's already in the status quo, just that they want it to be implemented state by state, like Selangor first, then Kelantan, and they said every state has different private company to govern the water supply, hence they claimed they are not proposing status quo, just some improvement on status quo. Luckily we prepare a "full-privatisation" case (we thought they'd come up with something like re-nationalise thingy, as the motion stated " should not be privatised") and we won over them for this round.

I think two rounds of winning is enough to boost our self-esteem. I think that's how God prepared us, to face UiTM1, in our third round, haa haa, and it's a humour round. Sooner or later we're going to meet them anyway, so i still think it's God's favor for us to meet them during humour round. We didn't know what they as d gov were proposing until the 6th min of daniel's speech. Motion : Frailty, thy name is women. They went with it as it is, saying women are weak, hence they want them to cover up themselves with black cloth (like those saudi arabia women we saw in KLCC), justified by the fact that it's in the teaching of Islam, and two more justification which i've forgotten. and women who do so will be pampered, like, they were to follow their husband wherever they go, so (i think this is funny) the husband has the responsibility to chauffer them around ..etc. we came out with something like discrimination to women thingy and..we knew we were skrewed. jerry and anthony still able to came up with some funny things, but I was too panic to e funny. and our stance wasn't strong enough la, luckily the margin is clear, not thrashing.

Then fourth round, we met UMS 3, whom we met again during quarter round and both round also defeated by them. we debated over protectionism by WTO on the ground of environment. we were gov. we set the case very wrongly. We set it in US instead of 3rd world countries, and want the latter to accept GMF technology so they would need less land to produce crop, hence cut down less trees, hence decrease deforestation rate. later alia expalined to me what does this motion actually mean. no wonder the chair, mr omar, was kinda pissed of wt us. suppose protectionism is on 3rd world countries, not 1st world, hence we were to give the former a say in their countries' development, whether to sascrifice their environment or not. because under the control of WTO, we should reach certain development stages as they have set for us, rite? we don't know much about this WTO and protectionism thing, and didn't quite understand what did it mean by " on the ground of environment", we set up our case on the 30th min prep time, and we let jerry veto it because there's no point to argue further. and we learnt a hard lesson from this round.

fifth round, we met UTM 3, again. fea's team also met UTM1 before, hence we say mildred's team and us became enemy in this tournament, ha. we debated over prisoner in guantanamo bay should be trial in military tribunal. we know what's guantanamo bay for, but didn't know how military tribunal function..we as gov, saying it's justified to punish those war criminal harshly if they found guilty, and those innocent will be released after the trial, rather than keeping all those "suspected" war criminals in there, torturing them for terrorist group information. it's a silent round. we won. as a whole, we manage to break by 3-2.

in quarter, we debated over "hired surrogacy mothers". we as opp. but we didn't quite argue with the "hired" term, rather, we say we should allow surrogacy mothers..which's not the point of the debate. it didn't quite occur to me until during the DPM's speech that i realise it's money that we were clashing. but my argument didn't really have anything to do with it, and we couldn't come up with anything to save our case,i talked about the right to parenthood and positive ramification of surrogacy. the point is, both sides already agree on surrogacy, just that the gov argued that surrogate mothers should do it voluntarily, not being hired. besides, jerry already told our split..then anthony came up rebutting "we served both desperate parties by hiring surrogate mothers". Mr latiff said this point came in too late, hence we lost. i agreed. we learnt a great lesson though, finding the crux of the debate.

I have to admit i learnt even more by sitting there and watching people debate. observing the way they argued and analysed the case, really feel the gap between us, down the stage, and them, on the stage, and the trophies in their hands. more trainings? definitely. but it's not enough. we should try out every possible way to improve ourselves, like watching video clips of final round in several tournaments and learn the way they debate. all and all, this's God's favor in us for this tournament, not to mention the great time we spent together in Kuching town , hee hee

homey girl

well, alas, i'm back home! the last return was in mid september, more than 2 months i was away. of course i missed my home, not only the comfort staying at home, but the home town i'm familiar with as a whole, together with the great food she has, always call me back home whenever possible :-)

though i do think of getting myself a job during this holiday ( well, if i can help up in a pharmasi, it'll be a great practice for me to avoid me from forgetting what i've learnt during my last semester ), but my holiday is just too short... till january, i have around 3 weeks' time. but previously i couldn't even get myself a part time job for my 2 months holiday! hence, for that 2 months, i took up guitar lesson instead, hee hee, didn't earn money but spent money instead...

then i'm thinking of continuing my guitar lesson during this sem break. it's been so long i didn't practise my plucking skill. besides, i didn't bring my guitar back from KTSN this time... i always think it doesn't worth it if i only get to practise during the guitar lesson, because u've paid to learn new things, not to practise the theories which i've known. plus, i'd prefer to learning struming than plucking because one can play more songs, in front of more audience, with struming. and the purpose i took up guitar at the first place is to serve my church, you denifinitely need more struming than plucking ok? i've even bought a pick for struming! but to me, my teacher was like refuse to teach me struming... it's been several times i requested from him that i want to learn chords, but he still went on with plucking... maybe it's still too early for me to learn plucking, or maby it's his job to teach me classical plucking. guitar lesson for holiday? still considering...

one thing for sure, i'm going to finish up few books i've bought: The Witch, and Danny the Champion of The World, both by Roald Dahl, and The Bible's Greatest Story. i just finished The Witch this morning, man, i can't help to love children storey books even though i'm 20 years old now. reading, for me, pleasure comes first than knowledge. getting my English improved or my scope of knowlegde widen are only the side benefits, compare to the pleasure of plunging myself inside the thoughts of the author and indulging with the creativity, not to mention the ability to read and to comprehen are always blessings to me :-) there's another book which i borrowed from my friend Kimberly -- To Kill A Mocking Bird by Harper Lee. took me like 10 mins to read the first page, great. but i still want to read it, because it's about children.

last but not least, maybe meet up my old friends and have a movie together, or mayb a lazy afternoon in starbucks, or a long night in mamak. whatever it is, i always like to meet up with them to see how they have changed, or what they are up to these days. Say Li says she's permed her hair, wow, that's a change! but i haven't got a chance to meet her yet, soon, i hope. then Kai Lee's been to bangkok last week and today's still in KL, meeting ex-matric friends. both Say Li and Kai Lee are my old school-mate now studying in USM, Pharmacy. there are loads of friends i'd like to meet up, too, especially Hsin Lin who's starting her first year in UMS, Sabah, this July. i wonder how did she find Sabah? i wonder how did she find Air Asia.. ha, because i don't quite like it la, although it's a lot cheaper compare to MAS, but for me, if i can afford, i'd rather choose the comfortable MAS to fly.

talking about luxurious life, i've always wanted a Sony MP3 player, especially the latest water-proof, cylinder-shape model. i think it's 2G, but i don't need that much memory space ok, i also don't need the water-proof function..i only like the design..the last time i checked its price, it's RM499 - 500. i know it's expensive, but i like Sony because of its good reputation in quality and it's the first ( and only ) MP3 player that can squeeze the file size of a song to a smaller size, hence, compare to the other brand of MP3 player with the same memory space, you can save more song in Sony! man, and the design of the lastest model is really cool, if not killing me, then it must be making me go insane to spend large sum of money just to purchase it, then go on diet for weeks. there's another model from Sony which i quite like it. i don't remember the model ( sorry guys, i have bad memory, even to people's names! ). it has sufficient memory space ( with the squeezing function i told you), reasonable price RM3++. the design is ok la, more stylish than other brand. so..maybe i'd just opt for this instead? Jun Hoe says the original price is RM7++ le, now is RM3++ , ha! so if i bought the latter, also considered worth it la.

and not to forget, Christmas is coming, and i've asked Thompson to take me to his church for Christmas celebration. i got to wait till he comes back from thailand then only ask him again la. hope my mum'd let me attend this festive celebration.

to end with today's blog -- Merry Christmas everyone, have a warm and peaceful Christmas full of love and joy!