;-(

It's the Lord's day. But it's a horrible day to me. Ever hit by an or a series of incidents so hard that you felt paralysed and numb as if your soul is out of the shell? That the inspiration you got after church service is used up in the process, and you felt like the world is coming to an end? That you tend to generalise the whole world to be dark and evil, and loose faith in the future?

Sobs... Never hated myself so much like now. Sobs..